Note to all songwriters/composers out there

"Fur Elise" was composed by Beethoven, but was it really for someone named Elise? Was it really even for a girl? I don't know. I never had any interest in doing that research. But I've learned the obvious truth that people who listen to your music may think it is about themselves. Just a cautionary warning to fellow composers: Don't serenade or piss off the wrong people. And Elise, if you're out there reading this, my opinion is that the song is not about you. I do have a suggestion for you: "You're So Vain" by Carly Simon (Someone check the MLA/spelling). And to everyone: do your research. Don't assume anything about a composer. Our minds work in very strange ways.

Forgot to mention my composition breakthrough!!!

Last Friday, I premiered my composition, "En Trois," at a composition intensive camp recital. Not so extravagant, but it was pretty cool to hear my creation being played. It's a piano trio (piano, violin, cello), 3 minutes in length.

July 16, 2011

Give me some advice.
Give me, give me a reason why.
Tell me everything that I've done wrong.
I'll take a hit to my pride.
I'm not so sorry for what I said to you.
But I wanna be sorry for what I said about you.

Remember when we used to talk
About how much I loved you?
Remember when you had me and your boyfriend,
The best of both worlds.
If you weren't such a bitch,
I'd say that we should try again.
And if I weren't such a jerk,
I'd say that we should just be friends.

God, God, please bless this relationship,
'Cos it's heading straight to Hell.
I'm tired of wasting minutes,
Writing these fucking stupid songs.
(Put the pen down)
Tell me if I had a chance with you,
Or was I just a stupid friend?
'Cos I want to, want to, want to know
If I could get a girl better than you.

If I can't get you, I can't get anyone.
You're the lowest on the chart.
I'd like to know we won't both end up alone.
It'll be only you in the dark.

July 8, 2011

I wish I could sing as well as you,
But I can't. So I won't fucking try to.
I wish I were as in shape as you,
But I'm not. So I'll stay in the drive-thru.
I'm just as perfect as anyone else.
My insecurities just get in the way.
If you love everyone more than yourself,
Please tell me why you never stay.

June 17, 2011

You're a...bitch!
You're a shithead!
And I'd like to kick your teeth in.
Are you slow?
I don't know.
But you put on quite one hell of a show.
You're an ugly little girl
With a healthy little appetite
For distress.
You're a mess.
Your self-loathing,
Holding onto your boyfriend.
A dead-end.
Guess he's not the sharpest tool in the shed.

And now some lyrics...

June 3, 2011
You stole my friends.
(Out of line)
You broke my heart.
(Wasted time)
You called us friends
(That depends)
Until the end.
(I broke the tie)

I didn't wanna have to do this,
But I'm going up against myself.
I'll spend it all on someone different,
Saving up my mental health.

It's too late.
(We can't touch)
...

My AP Lit Project

I'm planning a concept album called Allusions. I'll compose a song for each book I read this year, and turn it in as my end of the year creative project. AND I finally get to include "Sleep" from my A Lesson Before Dying "soundtrack" on a legitimate album, not a collection of songs from TheDangerZone Part 3. So...here is a list of songs I've already considered.

1. Sleep-A Lesson Before Dying (2009)
2. Downfall of Vanity-Oedipus Rex (2011)
3. ?-A Tale of Two Cities (2010)
4. ?-The Catcher in the Rye (2011)
5. The Fall-The Bell Jar (2011)
6. Antiquity-Candide (2011)

Next Free Time Project

I have two possible titles for it: Joue. Igri. Play. or I'm a Hater (maybe even Imma Hater). It all depends on what direction I decide to take with the music. The first title will call for a piano-heavy influence. The second is my idiosyncratic tongue-in-cheek concoction. However, I am growing older, so it would probably be different (and more explicit unfortunately) than Population: ME! or Reconstruction. Whatever I decide, here are some songs I want to include:

1. (Stole My Friends)
2. (You're a...)
3. Wait For Me
4. (How Do I Feel?)
5. I'm Not Your
6. (D)
7. You'll See
8. I'm Not Over
9. Say It
10. The Last One (I Swear)

() denotes songs yet-to-be-titled.

working on Antisocial right now...

It's coming along pretty slowly. I don't like that, but that's life. I'd like to focus more on my composition portfolio for college, so there will be less songwriting I suppose. But I will still post lyrical tidbits here.