June 22, 2009

I'm sorry I didn't say hello
When you sat at the other table.
Guess I'm just learning to tune you out
When you say nothing at all.
So sorry I didn't talk to you
'Cos your boyfriend's just so...stu...pid.
Guess I'm just losing my patience,
That fine line between
Who I am and who I thought you'd be.

Don't go and leave me in my hypocrisy.
I'm not the one you thought would be so incomplete.
I'm not the boy with immaturity.
Take that up with him.
Don't turn me away from you.

June 16, 2009 "May 28, 2009 (I'm Not It)"

I'm a really nice guy.
Sweet, attentive, caring, soft.
I'm smart and funny and everything,
But I'm not it.

I like you a lot,
And you're perfect to me.
The prettiest girl I've ever seen,
But I'm not it.

Burn it into my brain.
Force me to say it again and again.
Make me write it 'til I go insane.
"I'm not it!"

I've written this song a million times.
It's spinning me 'round this same record.
Dizzy and scraped up from flying off,
Only willing to climb back on.

I hear the same words I say,
Have the same thoughts every day.
Please let me end this tragedy.

(Silence)

Thanks...

June 16, 2009

We sit at opposite sides.
I thought I played so well.
I didn't make a mess,
Didn't let the secrets spill.
And you need me to be there,
And I need you.
But I won't compromise with
Your hurtful guise.

Don't put me in the middle.
I'll sit all by myself.
I didn't ask for disapproval.
So show my life some respect.
Maybe if I was three years older,
You wouldn't ignore me.

Move down some seats.
After all, they are annoying.
Forget my unforgettable presence.
Take me out of the picture frame.

Even on my darkest days,
I had you to hope for.
But all I really have
Is your empty words.

May 7, 2009

Today I scared myself so bad.
I fell completely to the floor.
All of this love for you I had,
I tried to slam the door.
I know you're stringing me along.
And I can't play anymore.
I've held my heart out too long.
I'm taking it back for someone else.
And when you're alone,
Don't cry to me for help.

I'll always love you,
But your time is up.
So I'm done.

This is harder than I thought.
Waiting was a part of me.
And all these thoughts in my head
Screwing with my sanity!
The smile has faded,
So just go away.
Come back so I can tell you
Not today.

Next day, I've planned to leave you.
Cut the leash you have on me.
And then I have to see the face,
Enduring yet another heartbreak.
I recognize my crestfallen tracks
That led to the snare in my place.
I'm hanging upside down,
Waiting for you. Wasted days.

You never said a word to me
Out in the public face.
Not a look, a smile, a gesture
To let me know I really mattered.
Take a look in these painful eyes
For the last time. It's been too long.

This is harder than I thought.
I thought I could wait long enough.
Now your lingering memory's
Screwing with my sanity!
Your chance has faded,
So just go away.
Come back and I'll tell you
How great we could be.

April 29, 2009 (The Rain)

Drops of sorrow down the road.
The cloudy gray breaks hope.
But the recklessness I feel
When skies grow dark.
I'll love you
With all my heart.
Not a sound to spare.
The scent of life in the air.
I hate to interrupt your life,
But I'm about to take flight.

Pour me over, let me fall.
(I'm so close to breaking)
Feel the water cascade down.
(Let it hit your beautiful face)
Drenched and self-conscious.
I'll never be dry again.

I've been storing myself inside,
Stopping up the raging tide.
But drops are overflowing walls,
Indestructible stone tumbling down.

April 27, 2009

Oh, I like you.
I would risk my life just to love you.
I can't remember being so insane.
But I'll always see you walk away.
Confusing, all the violence kept inside.
My burning wanting, what I have to hide.

I heard my first request,
Also my next and last lament.

And you threw it in my face,
Explained my sad mistakes.
I couldn't be any more wrong.
My mind lost for so long.
I'm such a great guy
Who deserves much better.

Lotsa Lyrics to Update On

April 7, 2009
I don't know
Whether I should love or back off,
When I should keep trying to talk.
I'll give up, throw hope out the door,
Then crawl back 'cos I need more.
I can't tell happiness and distress.
I can't figure out why I've made this mess.
I don't want to feel the pain of regret,
So I'll try my best to stay ahead.

I don't know
Why I'm so thoughtless,
Why I'm expecting you.
I don't know
Why I'm so hopeless,
Hoping to fall for you.
I don't know
Why it's so easy
To keep me dangling on...
On a ledge I built myself.
And someday, you may knock it down.