July 15, 2009

What if I kept you in my heart?
What if the wait wasn't so long?
What if you looked me in the eyes,
See I wasn't wrong?
What if you took me for a change?
And what if your mind wasn't so strange?
So I wouldn't hear of him.
He'd be gone.

I don't ask for help.
I don't need any help.
But I need you.
Why are you wasting your time?
Where were you tonight?

New Album Idea

It's gonna be called "Solitary Self-Confinement". I don't really know what I'll do with "Never WANTED To See You". It might still be a possibility. But the former will be set as a journal sequence based on my experiences and feelings of the past year. It's like my music journal. And the title is revitalizing the independence and reclusion I bring upon myself.

July 12, 2009

I came here just to hang out.
Didn't know I'd have to watch you make out.
I'm happy for you.
So can you knock it off? Fine something else to do.
My mistake. I didn't see you appear.
I was to busy txting so I wouldn't have to hear
The stupid things you say to each other.
The way you're acting, I'm about to call my mother

'Cos I...feel so uncomfortable.
I...I feel so uncomfortable.
I need to go. I need to go home.
Let me alone. Let me...God, I'm so alone!

One-on-one is a bad combination,
A horrifying tale to tell the children.
Couple couples, make a freakin' baby!
Just not in front of me. I won't see any of it.

I'm a lightweight,
So deeply conservative.
God first, family next.
I'm set in my opinions.

July 10, 2009 (Obsessive, Compulsive, Yet Not a Disorder)

Pull out my phone,
Feeling so left out.
Fake a little social life
To keep confident.
Desperate for affection,
A little care and presence.
God, why don't things happen
On my terms?

You weren't there when I was alone.
So why am I so soft to you?
What the heck happened to my backbone?
Why so many messages I've sent for you?

(The boy's obsessive)
I just know what I want. Don't take her from me.

July 7, 2009 (My One and Only Other Guy Song)

(This is against everything I know,
But here I go)

I'm one "try to be Christian" boy.
I've never felt the need to qauit.
Faith in God isn't a weakness.
He doesn't know who he's messing with.
I've never like profanity,
Afraid of immorality.
Don't take me to be naive.
I'll end his time, no goodbyes.

I hope some light has shined through.
Trash like him shouldn't be near you.
I don't like to compare,
But I'm better.

So, there may not seem like much to me.
But I'm as strong as the next guy.
Yeah, I don't dwell on serious. I'm a little too happy.

July 6, 2009 (I'm Not Your)

I'm not the sugar in your tea.
There's no reason for me to be sweet.
All the pleasantries are said politely.
I'm not the shoulder for your head.
Keep your complaints to yourself instead.
Put me on minimal importance.
I'm just a friend.

I'm not your boyfriend,
So keep your eyes off of me.
Hold his stupid hand. Pretend you're happy.
I won't be second.
Don't expect to talk to me.
Messing up my head and my heart
Without the guarantees.

I'm not the sample.
Nothing from me is free.
Stay invested or pay penalties.
I don't have his ego,
And I'm not so bold.
But you wasted time when I was ready.
I'm not the protector.
I don't need to be there for you...
Even though I want to.
I'm not a promise.
Shut up! You can't even make one.
But I promised you love.

(Chorus)

July 5, 2009 (Jealous Much?)

What did I do?
Oh, what could I have done?
It's never getting better.
I filled the hole
Then left another one.
I was trying to stay out.
Now I can't talk to you,
And I don't feel bad for you.
I'm waiting for you to take me for what I am.

I won't change a step.
And I won't make the moves easy.
Girl, you're so hard to get.
So if it's him you need, why are you looking at me?

I'm just a nice boy,
People always around me.
Go soften up those pretty eyes.
No reason for jealousy.