Prettyboy (Work in progress)

July 20, 2011
...Prettyboy, I'm coming after you.
You think you're cool
Because you're lifted up
By a group of antisocial nerds.
Are you stupid
Or just that insecure?
Looks won't get you anywhere
If you're so unsure.
You walk around like we worship you,
But we always talk about
How you will end up alone.
Yes, I'm jealous.
I don't get all the girls.
But at least I'm self-assured enough
To get to them first.

Prettyboy,
With perfect brains to save the day,
You can't even say her name.
Prettyboy,
With bigger muscles than me,
She'll break up with you anyway.

All that potential.
Why would you second-guess?
Girls flocking around you.
That's as good as it gets.
Stop making people guess.
The rumors will "flame."
You're a big boy now.
You have to scream your name.

Prettyboy,
With charm your ego complements,
You can't even please your friends.
Prettyboy,
With drink and popularity,
Alone in your residence.

Vain (Work in progress)

September 11, 2011
I wanna be it.
Hot-bodied, sick and twisted.
So sadistic,
Make you go insane.
I wanna have it.
Cool touch, so seductive.
Gotta love it
Running through your brain.
I wanna be
Vain. Vain...vain. Vain.
I wanna be
Vain. Vain...vain. Vain.

Take a look in the mirror.
Nice face that girls won't look at.
I don't want that.
Ch-Change it, change it.
Put on a scowl. Be a jerk.
Girls will like that.
It's attractive.
Say goodbye to me.
Walk, walk.
Right on top.
Just worked out.
I'm looking hot.
I'm just a little immature.
I like it!

I wanna be it.

Hot-bodied, sick and twisted.

So sadistic,

Make you go insane.

I wanna have it.

Cool touch, so seductive.

Gotta love it

Running through your brain.

I wanna be

Vain. Vain...vain. Vain.

I wanna be

Vain. Vain...vain. Vain.

Freeze. Choose your pose.

No one wants to know what you know.

It's electric.

Shock me, shock me.

Dirty truths come to life

In your eyes.

Nothing's secret.

They want your body.

Lie to stay on top.

Competition forced to drop.

I'm just a little insecure.

I like it...

I wanna be it.

Hot-bodied, sick and twisted.

So sadistic,

Make you go insane.

I wanna have it.

Cool touch, so seductive.

Gotta love it

Running through your brain.

I wanna be

Vain. Vain...vain. Vain.

I wanna be

Vain. Vain...vain. Vain.

Dance Alone (work in progress)

March 26, 2012
Run away
From the villain who has
Taken over me.
I'm a jerk.
My self-worth
Is dirtying the ground.
I'm holding on
To what is not mine anymore.
Why didn't I guess
That you'd leave me alone?
I'd like to dance,
But I can't find the floor.
I don't deserve any sympathy.

What makes me feel
Like I'm in control?
A failed attempt,
And I've hurt everyone.
In denial.
I take a step too far.
And though I'm craving for a real life,
I dance alone.

Doing moves that I like,
But no one seems to care.
Stiff and forced. But of course,
I'm not myself.
Wasting my energy so
We can all have fun.
Won't you stay?
I wanna dance with you.
Don't break away.
I have no one else to choose.
Don't leave me 'til
This song is over!

What makes me feel

Like I'm in control?

A failed attempt,

And I've hurt everyone.

In denial.

I take a step too far.

And though I'm craving for a real life,

I dance alone.

Circles

I just finished this a few days ago. Another piano comp in the vein of Vanessa Carlton's "The Wreckage."
Circles

February 12, 2012
Spinning,
Take me in the moonlight.
I am with the living,
But time stands still.
Watching
Continuum in motion.
Dreams outlining fears
By cheating deaths.

I'll never be a social
When I'm in a circle.
My eyes are glossing over,
But boredom is my cover.

Reaching out, but
Turn and cross.
I'm in a daze.
Safe and sound
In my secluded
Numbness. Waiting.

Watch me
Contemplating insight.
So embarrassed.
Waiting for alarms.
People,
Hopes and dreams perpetual.
Never moving forward.
Starting, but
Never ending.

I'll never feel at home
When I'm in a circle.
Suffering stagnation
For sake of relations.

Yet Another Beginning to an Unfinished French Song

It was supposed to sound/feel like Stariy Pidzhak, but it shall never be finished. Ironic, considering the lyrics...

August 23, 2012
Je veux écrire une chanson
En autre langue.
Sans assistance,
Écrit tout seul.
Ma persistance, c'est rien
Sans mon ambition.
Il faut que je finisse
Cette chanson.

Je veux vivre avec
Une leur d'espoire.
Sans reculer,
Me defendre.

(I want to write a song
In another language.
Without help,
Written all by myself.
My persistence is nothing
Without my ambition.
I must finish
This song.)

Killer

August 11, 2011

Do you think I'm crazy?
Do you think I'm insane?
You talk about me,
And that's okay.
I'm obsessed wi-ith you,
According to the rumor.
So, let's make your lies truth,
Forget that I'm human.

I'll follow you home,
Watch you take off your clothes,
And fantasize.
You won't say no
When I ask you to be mine.

I am a killer! I'll kill ya
If you don't say you love me.
I am a killer! I'll kill ya
In the middle of the street.
Can't wait 'til he's out of the picture.
I need you now-now-now.
Face it now, I'm out to get ya!

I want you...ha!
Are you afraid yet?

I'm the perfect mistake
You'll never make again.
And I'll love you the same.
It's a permanent marking.
I'm here forever.
I left all my friends for you,
So give me what I ask for.
I've waited for you,
So open the door.

If you are home,
I hope you are alone
When I arrive.
Hang up the phone
'Cos we're running out of time.

I am a killer! I'll kill ya

If you don't say you love me.

I am a killer! I'll kill ya

In the middle of the street.

Can't wait 'til he's out of the picture.

I need you now-now-now.

Face it now, I'm out to get ya!

Take my freedom. Take my fortune.

I don't need what has its limits.

It's amazingly forgotten,

What I do with second chances.

Shut me up and cut me out

By playing into people's feelings.

I'm a reckoning

As long as you keep trying.

Overstate the situation.

I'm allowed to play the victim.

Gather allies, using them

To overcome your propaganda.

Call you bitch and take your virtue.

Let there be no one to run to.

Piss me off; I'll write about you.

Make me sad, and I will kill you!

I am a killer! I'll kill ya

If you don't say you love me.

I am a killer! I'll kill ya

In the middle of the street.

Can't wait 'til he's out of the picture.

I need you now-now-now.

Face it now, I'm out to get ya!

Call you bitch and take your virtue.

Let there be no one to run to.

Piss me off; I'll write about you.

Make me sad, and I will kill you!

F-A-T

I run, run, run
But I go nowhere.
I try to hide
What isn't there.
I'm falling, falling, falling, falling
Up the stairs.
Who cares? It's safe now.

Give it an extra notch.
(Pain is a positive.)
Make me sweat a lot.
(I'm hurting for you.)
Mould me.

Find that little problem.
Ample restoration.
Tired, but not broken.

Find that little problem.

Ample restoration.

Tired, but not broken.

Sit down, drink up.
All I do is wait.
How much can I cut
To beat my fate?
Balance out;
Urges suppressed.
Who cares? It's my life.

Tell me it's good for me.
(I'm at your mercy.)
Restriction is the key.
(I want for nothing.)
Mould me!

Find that little problem.

Ample restoration.

Tired, but not broken.

Find that little problem.

Ample restoration.

Tired, but not broken.

Sirens, sirens, sirens, sirens

Telling me to quit.

But I can't stop...

'Til everything fits.

Find that little problem.

Ample restoration.

Tired, but not broken.

Find that little problem.

Ample restoration.

Tired, but not broken.