"November 23, 2012"

Что случилось?
Небо становило серый.
Мои мысли - грустные.
Моя жизнь разрушая.

What happened?
The sky turned gray.
My thoughts are sad.
My life is ruined.

Don't Wanna

"November 7, 2012"

I don't wanna be a jerk.
I don't wanna be that guy.
I don't wanna tease you
If it'll make you cry.
I'm just insecure
And trying to get you to notice me.
But if that hurts,
Then I guess I'll stop.

There are so many things I should be.
Why do you see this as me?
What am I doing wrong?

I don't wanna be a player.
I will not objectify you.
I won't smack your ass or say something crass
Because it doesn't suit.
I'm just sensitive
And too shy to make the first move.
But if it's what you need,
I guess I'll try.

There are so many things I could be.
Why do you need this to be me?
What am I doing wrong?

I don't wanna be your gay friend.
I don't wanna be your go-to.
I wanna be an option
And fall in love with you.
I'm just over-friendly,
And I want your trust.
But if it isn't what you want,
I guess I'll go.

There are so many things I should be.

Why do you see this as me?

What am I doing wrong?

I wanna be your boyfriend.

I want us to fall in love.

A long life together,

It's what I'm thinking of.

I'm just waiting for you

To fall in love with me.

But if you don't love me,

I guess we're done.

October 17, 2012

"October 17, 2012"

Baby, you don't have to run.
Just learn to take the fall.
Not good enough
Is better after all.
It's a matter of choice and heart.
Not trying to pull you down.
I can make a good start
If you let me stick around.

I'm not so sure you like me at all,
But I'll keep trying 'til you reject me.
I'm staying positive, and it
Makes me feel alive.



Wake up and (take/drink) the poison.


My influences for this song include Five For Fighting's "Superman (It's Not Easy)," Frou Frou's "Let Go," and Natasha Bedingfield's "Smell the Roses."

October 14, 2012

"October 14, 2012"

In a sphere of discord,
When no one agrees on fundamentals,
I look you in the eyes.
Forget you.
I'm just trying to work the crowd appeal.
Arguing all over time.
Pull your pants up,
Break down, and face me.
My image will survive.

You Think You're Alone

Just finished my Euphonium solo for a composition competition I'm entering. There is a specific way to play it, in my opinion, because it doesn't sound like a piece you would listen to at a concert. It's split into three short movements, all of which are expressive of the different feelings of being alone. I envision the performer to walk into a large hall with just a chair, sitting down and playing this piece as people walk by. Too many people gathered around watching might lessen the acoustical effect, so the performance must be spontaneous.

You Think You're Alone

More, Better Covers

So, you know how I tend to have a short attention span, musically? Well, I have another AWESOME idea for an album, just until I can get some creative inspiration for Joue... and my synthesizer stuff for The Age of Innocence. So I've been poring over my collection for the past week, looking for acceptable songs to cover. I've been looking at songs I can adapt for the piano or turn into synth comps, or just add my flavor. And I have a list of 32 songs I might cover. Of course, this won't be an official album because I don't want to mess with royalties. Just a pet project to keep me occupied until I can push it off to the side.

Here's the 32-track list:

1. Beauty Queen/Horses (Tori Amos)
2. Different (Acceptance)
3. Eleanor Rigby (The Beatles)
4. Paradise (Vanessa Carlton)
5. Words (Skylar Grey)
6. Outlaws of Love (Adam Lambert)
7. Crazy (K-Ci & JoJo)
8. I Only See You (Benton Paul)
9. Trees (Marty Casey & the Lovehammers) *
10. Bad News (Kanye West)
11. Call Your (Boyfriend) [Robyn]
12. Cold Feet (Liam Finn) *
13. Yesterday (Diddy Dirty Money)
14. She Said (Unwritten Law)
15. Tainted Love (Soft Cell)
16. Coldest Winter (Kanye West)
17. Just a Feeling (Maroon 5)
18. Yeah Yeah Yeah You Would (Diddy Dirty Money)
19. So Sick (Ne-Yo)
20. Falling Stars (David Archuleta)
21. Somebody That I Used to Know (Gotye)
22. Mean (Taylor Swift)
23. Facedrop (Sean Kingston)
24. Goodnight and Go (Imogen Heap)
25. Вспоминай (Sergei Lazarev)
26. Mercy (Matt Nathanson)
27. One More Night (Maroon 5)
28. Deseo Que Ya No Puede Ser (Nek)
29. How (Maroon 5)
30. Won’t Stop (OneRepublic)
31. Complainte de la Butte (Rufus Wainwright) *
32. Junebug (Robert Francis)

Gay Best Friend

"October 10, 2012"

I'm such a good little nice boy
With such a positive behavior.
But when girls like you walk by,
I get a strange little fever.

My body starts rising, and I lose control.
And I try to show you where this friendship will go.

And suddenly my body deflates.

You make me feel so gay
When I'm around you,
Like I just wanna be your best friend.
And what I hate
Is I can't impress you,
And the sad cycle never ends.

(Tell me about all the boys you like...)