New ending to "Let Me"

After the "Surrounded by myself, I'm giving up." line, there will be (No. I can't give up.)

Then, continuing the song from where I left off in the last post about "Let Me":

Let's go before I was thinking
That I could be that guy.

Let me cry.
Let me fall down one more time.
Let me cry.
But I will never say goodbye.

Let me cry.
Let me fall down one more time.
I'll still try.
I will never, never say goodbye.

I was just very troubled by the overall "giving up" mood of the song. I want to leave a bit of hope in the end.

Changes/Additions to A Ghost (as of January 10)

Going over the music this weekend, I decided to rearrange the lyrics a bit. Here they are in their new and improved entirety.

I see the hole where I should be.
What I think, who I need.
I'm at a loss for all that's important.
Realize I have no possibilities.

The weight will drop down
Wherever I run.
Soon I will be crowned
A Nice No One.

So I'll be home alone
Waiting for my life to come.
The cold numbs all my darkest thoughts.
I should be gratified
That you deign to keep me alive.
'Cos no one sees a ghost.

I can still hear you.
My heart waits here for you.
My love will never say die.

So inexperienced, yet so undesirable.
So naive, I thought everything would work out on its own.
Chances in my fallacies are soon becoming rare.
My robotic abstinence will be only despair.

Watching people coupling
As I fake a horrid smile.
Thoughts of you and me
Begin to surface all the while.
I'll cry too late,
For I will never see you.
Simply end this day,
My broken heart continued.

(Chorus)

I see the hole where I should be.
What I think, who I need.
I'm at a loss for all that's important.
Realize I have no possibilities.

But I see the hole where I can't be.
Imagine I'm a possibility.
Desperate crossroads becoming scared.
My frail insecurity could end my life right there.

(Chorus)

?Done?

Tonight, I'll hang up.
I'll go inside.
Finally, I'm done.
I've held up all my signs.
I broke myself to no return.
Never again
Will I speak a word.

Suppressed myself so much,
I don't have any tears.

I don't understand my thoughts.
I just don't know my heart.
But why must I go?
Why can't we start?

Another Untitled Jumble of Words!

I almost scared myself today.
Things were getting weird.
I tried to step aside,
Only missing you more.
I can't play it easy.
If I'm going to break,
Let me break for you.

I'm so stupid.
I'm so ashamed.
But I've got nothing left to take away.
Self-destructing.
I'm so afraid.
Will I ever get the chance?

I'm dangling.
Let me on the ground.
You're floating.
Get off of those clouds.
I'm waiting.
Just say no.
You're wavering.
You're wavering.
I'll wait!

Don't let me fall.
I don't know my pain.
Cloaked in confusion.
Just give me my mask,
And I'll pretend.
I'm so good at not feeling.
I can relapse,
Ruin my life.
Anything to stay in denial.

But I'll always keep you close.
I've loved too much, my heart too full.
I'll stay in place forever
If it means you're happy.

Wait

I'm sick,
And I'm wasting my time.
Hold on.
I'll never see the light.
Just let me reach the ground
Before the pain seeps in again.
For nothing feels better
Than this mess I'm in.
I'll keep these feelings
Bottled up inside
'Til the time is right.
This, I tried.

But
I can't wait by the phone,
Hoping for a call
To make my life amazing,
While I'm missing it all.
I won't sit on the edge,
Breaking my heart.
To watch you walk away
______________
I can't wait for your call.

?Unusual You?

Don't have a title yet...

I'll dream... (whispered)

I can't...ooh, I can't get you away.
Impossible to keep from play.
(Never mind. I'll see you later.)
I can't...ooh, I'll never get my way.
But I'm always one to stay.
(Never mind. It's not the right time.)

I'll wake up tonight and think you really love me,
Hold onto nothing to catch a glimpse of chance.
I'll be here to feel your love, forever waiting.
But I'm another...

I'll try today, love tomorrow.
Cross the line to waste the time.
I'll sing away my blissful sorrow
And hide this face to cry in shame.

Nothing left for Mr. Reject.
I'll just take another step back.

I'll hope, but I'm not everything.
Will this be my wasted dream?
(Don't cross the line. It's not the right time.)
I can't...ooh, I can't be second ring.
You think of me or it's nothing.
(Hold on tight. We'll be here later.)

(Bridge)
(Chorus)

I guess that you've realized
I won't fade to gray.
I'll wait right here,
But only in center stage.

I can't...ooh, I can't make an escape.
I'm stuck in your crazy game.
(No delays. I won't wait!)

Back!

...with some lyrics. Working on a song possibly for recital this year called "Let Me".

Let Me
Tears falling, and I don't know why.
Unanswered, but not a reply.
Forgetting that it's in my head.
I'll never free it again.

Just tell me you'll never miss me.
That I've lost my mind.
Say to me you'll never carry
This foolish heart of mine.

Ooh, let me cry.
Let me fall down one more time.
Let me cry
Before I say goodbye.

Unwinding all my thoughts again.
I'll never see the end.
Make believe I'm my only friend,
And I'll crawl back inside myself again.

Just show me I'll never wonder
What my life could be.
Break my spirit 'til I'm nothing.
Give me what I need!

(Chorus)

I've felt the bottom now. I can't go on.
Surrounded by myself, I'm giving up.

Just show me my silly nothings.
Tell me it's a lie.


more to come later...