"November 23, 2012"

Что случилось?
Небо становило серый.
Мои мысли - грустные.
Моя жизнь разрушая.

What happened?
The sky turned gray.
My thoughts are sad.
My life is ruined.

Don't Wanna

"November 7, 2012"

I don't wanna be a jerk.
I don't wanna be that guy.
I don't wanna tease you
If it'll make you cry.
I'm just insecure
And trying to get you to notice me.
But if that hurts,
Then I guess I'll stop.

There are so many things I should be.
Why do you see this as me?
What am I doing wrong?

I don't wanna be a player.
I will not objectify you.
I won't smack your ass or say something crass
Because it doesn't suit.
I'm just sensitive
And too shy to make the first move.
But if it's what you need,
I guess I'll try.

There are so many things I could be.
Why do you need this to be me?
What am I doing wrong?

I don't wanna be your gay friend.
I don't wanna be your go-to.
I wanna be an option
And fall in love with you.
I'm just over-friendly,
And I want your trust.
But if it isn't what you want,
I guess I'll go.

There are so many things I should be.

Why do you see this as me?

What am I doing wrong?

I wanna be your boyfriend.

I want us to fall in love.

A long life together,

It's what I'm thinking of.

I'm just waiting for you

To fall in love with me.

But if you don't love me,

I guess we're done.