"December 17, 2012"

"December 17, 2012"

My house.
My room.
My bed.
My head.
My food.
My job.
My car.
My heart.

I need to feel like this is mine.

(repeat)

Disconnection from sentiment.
A sweet collection of nothing meant.
My years of building - a consequence.
Fulfill the feeling of independence.

New Cover Idea

So, I've been listening to so much Depeche Mode lately, and I'm thinking of doing a cover of one of at least their songs. I definitely want to do "Personal Jesus," but I'd love to do "John the Revelator" or "Blasphemous Rumors." Actually, anything from their catalog would be good. But I was thinking "Personal Jesus," maybe even "John the Revelator," would be perfect The Age of Innocence.

Случайные Мысли

Случайные Мысли

Is Patience Truly a Virtue?

So, I finished a really important song last night. And I was all excited to post the completed lyrics up for everyone to see...but then, I thought..."This is an epic moment for me. Would it be better if I waited, built up the suspense? Do it like REAL recording artists and tease about how I have new stuff for 3 months, build up the hype, and then release a critically acclaimed hit single? Blah blah blah?"

...I've developed an opinion mid-post: Forget suspense. Forget being a musical tease. If I ever make it big, THEN I will be a jerk and prolong the release of "precious" lyrics/songs. But for now, let's just enjoy some music! More specifically, a collection of words that describe mental state on July 17, 2012 and a little bit on December 10 (Holy Goodness, that was yesterday!). Let's reiterate: I write songs based on incredibly personal subjects. I include dates with my songs now, not only to emulate a journal entry, but also to show when I was experiencing what I was writing. This particular song is pretty pathetic, but no worries. Its just therapy :)

"July 17, 2012"

I sit here eating Triscuits and chocolate chips
At 1 in the morning.
I'm getting bigger...and older too.
Second pass; unnoticed.
I've sat and waited for 8 long years,
Hoping for a miracle.
A break in the shit that
I've put up with.
Something less difficult.
I take four steps closer
To my ideal life.
Music path uncharted.
But the fairy tale stories
Show minimal odds.
Then, I'm back to where I started.

Where is my money going now?
I have to figure out my future somehow.

I'm not a winner.
I'm not a survivor.
I'm unentertaining and weak.
I'm a maybe.
Never a definite reply.
I'm forgetful,
And I'm forgettable.
I lack encouragement, support.
I'm an answer
To the question of failure.

I pretend that I'm famous and popular
And write alone in my room.
Post songs on my Facebook site
And sell it all on iTunes.
Four steps later,
I'm a millionaire.
Successful and insightful.
But reality kicks in,
And I'm wasted space.
No one's very helpful.

I'm not a winner.

I'm not a survivor.

I'm unentertaining and weak.

I'm a maybe.

Never a definite reply.

I'm forgetful,

And I'm forgettable.

I lack encouragement, support.

I'm an answer

To the question of failure.

If I can break through

The crowd of desperate hopefuls,

Maybe I'll stop wasting my life.

If I can sing out,

Bare my soul,

Maybe someone will like what I have to say...

I sit here, eating Pick Up Stix

At 6 in the evening...

I'm not a winner.

I'm not a survivor.

I'm unentertaining and weak.

I'm a maybe.

Never a definite reply.

I'm forgetful,

And I'm forgettable.

I lack encouragement, support.

I'm an answer

To the question of failure.

Dueling Violins

Dueling Violins

"Too many pieces of music finish too long after the end."

-Igor Stravinsky




Oh how true...

I Promise You...

Instead of posting snippets of lyrics and parts of songs, I'm going to finish something by the end of this week!!! I promise anyone who reads this!!! By Sunday night, I will have posted/completed an entire song. Either lyrics or music. Maybe both if I'm feeling extremely creative.

Oh, and I need to finish my piano/sitar composition.

Theory Final Comp

I'm supposed to write a piece for piano in ternary form using a Chopin-esque structure, with no more than one sharp/flat in the original key, and I have NO IDEA WHAT TO WRITE!!!! Severe composer's block happening. And it's all due tomorrow. (Frustration)

Hopefully, when I finish this, I'll be able to use it for Joue. That's the goal. I'm already planning on putting my "Simple Little Melody" into a series of similar-sounding compositions (one from last year that's entitled 'February [something or other]).

Piano Solo from September

Forgot to post this a while back! I started writing a piano solo piece on September 16, and I finished it some time in October/November. I have other compositions I wanna post soon, but I'll wait until I have the recordings for those.


A Simple Little Melody