I'm not liking this break...

It's so hard to take a break from music. It's so much a part of my life!!! But I must if I plan on being healthy ever again (I got another bad cold last week). Still recuperating while doing a large amount of homework. But I promise, once my creativity comes back, and I have more free time, it's back to the album! I'm thinking about doing a little recording for "A Ghost" soon. I'm in my element!

Taking a little tiny break

It's been very difficult to keep up with school work and extra-curriculars, AND work on music. I'll be taking a little break until things settle down.

Today

Writing has continued. New songs are in the works. I've also looked back on the idea of transferring a lot of my songs to the piano.

Such songs at the moment include:

A Loner's Song
My Mourning
Superficiality
Invisible
Let Me Be
Will I Fall? (ALS) [Full Version]
Not the Only One
Twisted

My original plan (I don't know if it's anywhere on this blog) was to have these songs transposed, but I see that this idea will have to be adjusted for more recent songs.

Hits For Piano

1. Superficiality
2. Let Me Be
3. Twisted
4. A Loner's Song
5. fInDmE
6. Everytime
7. Not the Only One
8. Invisible (Lyubov' Konchena)
9. Nothing's Changed
10. My Mourning
11. All She Wanted (All I Got)
12. Alone
13. Crash
    

New Song Idea: The Trip

The music is inspired by the Paramore song, "Let the Flames Begin" and Krystal Meyers' "The Situation".

Here's what I have now:

No, you can't lay your head on me.
I wish it could've ended right there.
But I had to be so stupid, not wanting to hurt your feelings.
Head straight to catastrophe.
I'll have to check No later,
It's not the moment to decide.

I'll give you an answer.
I can't care how you feel. It's just done.
The moment I break,
All of the self-righteousness is gone.

A Ghost

I see the hole where I should be,
What I think, who I need.
I'm at a loss for all that's important.
Realize I have no possibilities.
The weight will crash down
Wherever I run.
Soon I will be crowned
A Nice No One.

So inexperienced, yet so undesirable.
So naive, I thought everything would work out on it's own.
Chances in my fallacies are soon becoming rare.
My robotic abstinence will be only despair.

So I'll be home alone,
Waiting for my life to come.
The cold numbs all of my darkest thoughts.

Top Priority (as of December 11)

If I take myself outside,
Will you be satisfied?
Will you support me
When I lose my mind?

What's best for me
Is a break,
An easy pace.
I'm pushed into a tree.
I can't make everything my top priority.

I freak out
About the little things.
I get sick,
And I can barely speak.
I found out
I'll never get to sleep.
Stupid authority is making me forget to breathe.

You require of me
What I don't want to learn.
Your stubbornness is not out of concern.
Tell them if they try,
Look up to the skies.
There's not one more line I can memorize.
I want to please you.
I strive to succeed.
But I'll never have enough of what you need.

(Chorus)

If I take myself outside,
Oh the perspective I'd find!
In the cornered guilt,
I hope I lied.
Will you be satisfied
If I told you I cried?
Overwhelming for me
Must be defied.
Will you support me...
I'll strangle my creativity,
Qualified through the academy.
...when I lose my mind?

(Chorus)